3/26/2011
Well, I studied all day. But the efficiency is not great even very worse. But at the other side, I was studying... It's better than never. Well, I will insist this mode until final. I don't have many choice if I wanna get average B this semester. The power was down when I got home. I even wanna call joinse( my temporary landlord,actually I prefer to call her manager...) to figure it out. But I think think she cannot do anything until tomorrow morning. I didn't call her. Well, fortunately, power would come in one hour. I don't need to lay on the bed to think about how to get sleep... What's else? I told to that guy yesterday, about 5 hours... We usually talk a very long time during msn. Oh, and my core humanities class. I am not sure if I drop it or not. I don't wanna drop it but it seems like I have no choice... I am really not a literary art type. I registered GRE test yesterday,too. The test is on July 23th, the last test before it is changed. I have to pass this test because this is my second option which means I need this grade to go to graduate school. I am also considering to get a job in summer, but it also seems like I don't have enough time... So pity.

3/28/2011
Today is a nice day!Well, it depends which part is. But the quality is above the average. Dr. Voskalu said that he didn't even start to grade our midterm... Lucky me. Well, I thought the presentation is today, but actually it will on Wednesday.  Well, I gave up the core humanities, maybe I will take this class in summer, but maybe in May. I prefer to take this class in summer because I still remember something if I take it in a very short interval. I am playing the crime city on the facebook. This game is from the tv show,"csi in Vegas".  Essentially, this is very stupid game which means it doesn't have any technical skill to play. A player just need to search each square to get evidences.  Each area cost several energy. There are original area which costs 6 points energy. A fibre trance which cost around 15 point. It depends by tools. There are several activities also depended by tools such as detail trace, blood trace and print trace. Of cause, a player need to pay real money to get best tools. Well, my level is 13 now, I think I can get 14 by midnight:). I also submitted several resume today. Actually I should in the JCSU, but someone I know is also in JCSU, I don't wanna be there. It makes me feel lonely. Actually if I insist to stay there, it may not so terrible like I think. I usually sensitive in this kind of situation.Anyway, I will do some programming,maybe today, and then go to sleep.

3/31/2011
Well, nice day, actually. We have a career fair today, less companies than I thought... Even some companies need engineering students, just few of them need CS. Even some of them need CS, few of them need CS internship... Well, I am still working on it. Feel not good in the evening meeting. I think this is called growing up because you need to move on and thinking positive way on desperate situation. Oh, I was sick and felt terrible last two days, and didn't do anything. It made me feel worse though. But I cannot do nothing because my headache. I called to my parents which this is the first time I called to them in this semester. What's else? I think it is easy to be a friend with guy comparing with a girl to me. I don't know why, maybe it is a little about my personality. They don't care a lot of little tiny thing. Neither do I. I feel awkward when my girl friend cares a lot of crap thing. Well, what's else? Oh, I grab any job opportunity I knew. Even if in IELC. Well, but it is also possible that I cannot get this job. Thinking about the worst case Rui, you will feel better if the thing will really worse.

It's hard to find job everywhere,cheer up!You can got it~

4/2/2011
Well, well, well, four women go down the stairs, how many reach the lobby _ _||. Haha, I like Amy so much! I am also rewatching sexy and the city now, every time I watch this tv show again, I usually get different meaning. Well, I don't feel good because period come. This is the first reason that I hate to be a girl. Another thing, it is also one thing that I don't wanna talk about. I did a very terrible mistake that email my resume to a wrong person. Fortunately from this mistake is that person edited my resume again and again. But this mistake probably let me miss an important interview. Well, I know my friend's advice and lesson is good for me. She is good to me, but the way it is just a little rude. Because she think she can help me it doesn't mean she can judge me all the time. Well, maybe I am sensitive. Her purpose is good anyway.  The experience told me that check things second time if this is important. What's else? Oh, since I didn't do many jobs today, I will go to library yesterday and finish my essay and partial programming. If I have time, I will edit my website,too.

After ur 1st period came, u r no longer a girl, but a young lady :)))

I'm also worried about my assignment! a busy week.

4/4/2011
One of my professors got a reward in my our class, which is called "best computer science in this semester." He give each student in this class 10 bucks back. Oh, actually it's not by cash, it is by food... He said if we go to graduating party next week, he can pay us 10 bucks each. The original price is 25 bucks in Mexican buffet.... But the truth is, no one wanna show up... It's embarrassing, he said. I think it is embarrassing,too. Haha, anyway, he is very exciting to get this rewards even though this class is not a real computer class_ _||. Dr V, the director in computer department with other teachers came the classroom when we were in 320 class. They took a lot of pictures and congratulate Dr. N for the class. Dr. V look the slides which was shown on the projector and said,"Who told me what kind of cs class is! It seems like a medical class..." Well, we were talking about the eye construction and colour contrast at that time... But I think this class is easy to be understand by non-computer science people. So this is why he got the reward... Anyway, good for him! He is a very nice and kind teacher whom has a little accent:). I have a project due tomorrow 1 o'clock which means... Hey, I know I am talking about... Okay, my keyboard had a little problem just now, so that I just can reboot my laptop. I also wanna watch sex and the city today, but I am pretty sure that I dont have enough time to watch since I didn't do anything yesterday. Cheer up!

4/7/2011
Sex and the city! I cannot decide which lady I like more... Well, never mind. I will get up 6:30, do my shower, have breakfast, and finish my website... Then oh, my omg go to monk interview and go to knowlegdge center! Oh, busy Friday! I am also pretty sure that I also have a meeting on Saturday.Oh, my goodness, I just remeber I need to fill out my application of my internship.
What a busy weekend! But just hold one month more.Then I will have a big fight to go... Well, nothing is perfect, I usually told to myself, try best think the worst situation. Whatever, my goal is one A and three Bs, at least have have eighty percent shorts to get my goal. What's else? Oh, just do better to yourself especially you are in the city alone. What's else? Oh, I miss the latest episode the big bang theory. I need to cheer up at night. It is not good for me to prepare my final and do what I wanna do. I mean what's a big deal to study in the student union or knowledge center and call a escort at night? just one month! Well, who I am ling to?I hate to go home alone. But do you wanna get nice grade? Do you wanna feel better? Do you wanna not leave any regret ? So just stay there from tomorrow! No pain no gain.

4/9/2011
Well, I have a broken tooth.. I am considering should I implant it here or go back to china... I could ignore it but it is near my incisor... I hope it can insistent until I come home... The price is a little high, the medium price is 1250 t0 1500. Dollar... Well, it equals about around 10 thousands RMB. But if I go back home the flight cost around 1300, and plus implant price I think it also cost around 1500 dollars. What should I do? Maybe I will get a different decision after I asking my classmates. Maybe they will recommend one doctor for me. But I need a car first of all... Okay, the plan is in below: go to interview, buy a car, pass gre, work and that's it. My little plan in summer break. But hold on, I need to go though the final in the regular semester. What's else? After watching sex and the city, I have an impulsion to get a good friend. But since the experiences in my whole life of making friend, I don't think this plan can be finished. Well, anyway, fantasy can help people go though the difficult situation.

4/11/2011
hrrr... I lost my cellphone. And I admire the cellphone carrier seller so much... I just wanna buy a sim card? Why you guys don't let me go unless I get a contract? So crazy people... It took me one hour to finish this crap... What did the manager say?He said,"oh, take it easy. I am trying do anything to you..." You did anything for me? I think that you rob my money very easily. Well, whatever, I got a contract for 2 years of my cellphone. I wanna cry. The sad thing is, My bill will more expensive than original price plus two years contract... Well, that's talk something else. I am going to buy a car next week... Yes, and already told someone to teach me how to drive. Preparing the interview on Friday. I got a very low grade in one of my class, but I don't worry about it, because B is goal, and if I get a higher grade in my second midterm, I will be Okay. Study! Study! Oh, I am so worried about my teeth...(they teeth, not tooth). They drive my crazy. I have four carious teeth in my front teeth, and one of them can be seen outside... I like to smile, but with these teeth, it seems like a dream. (Well, be honestly, I don't care, but I am thinking about my teeth when I am smiling every time...). What's else? I am not a gossip girl, but I have to say, I really don't know what's she doing... That's it. I don't know. It seems like GMAT is the most important thing to do. But she doesn't think so. Well, good luck for her.

4/12/2011
Well, it was so bad... This thing distracted me from the class... which means bad. I think that I just haven't used to this... well, I will. But my heart heat fast when I saw his message. It doesn't mean anything, does it? He and his friend just come over and will have a crazy weekend. I thought a whole night then I realized I thought too much. My job is just a guide. I don't have a car so I cannot pick them up. They may drive, may not, whatever. But I need to stay in campus. If he wanna meet, fine, in campus. I don't think it will happen anything because we just talk several times even didn't meet each other before. The reason I nervous because I didn't do this before. Well, let's see what will happen:). I may find a girl friend with me, but if I cannot find, doesn't matter, just assure it is in campus and safety. What's else? oh, night of all nations! Let's also see what will happened. haha, I am going to bed. Preparing for fighting tomorrow! Well, I like this sentence: no matter how you feel, get up, dress up, and show up! Oh, and prepare as enough as you can!

4/15/2011
Nothing happened. None, not even any felling in him... And I have to say, his English sounds like black man, and I am thinking maybe it is wrong to contact an Asian because they are very familiar about us. Well, anyway, boring, crowded, and starving. Just met a few old friends and watched a familiar show... And food? Oh, don't ask to me. Actually I wanna try the Chinese food but since he doesn't like it, well, we just past it. One more thing, why anybody ask me "is he your boy friend?" Can they think much more than that? I don't know,just think they are so ...
Well, let's talk about my interview, this interview was not bad. There were six questions in the quiz which I first know you have quiz when you are in interview. Whatever, I finished all of them and answered all the questions. Since I don't have any experiences of PHP I don't think they will hire me. At the end of the interview he said I will call you next week so that you can find other internship... Well, anyway, this is just my the second interview, if I can conclude it as a pattern, I may get a job:). Wish me luck.

  I  ....  I .....  I ......  I .......  I ....  I .....
  Frankly speaking, it's boring.
 

4/17/2011
I think I and him just like this, the end.Maybe we can email each other but just like a pen friend. I usually cannot finish my plan, so it is not surprised that I don't finish this time. Well, but I do wanna get b in that class, so I cannot allow last situation happens again. I am in the student union which means I have to study in my midterm. Finishing before 10 o'clock was my original plan but it is normal if I cannot finish it before mid-night. Be honest, I don't expect a lot on my original plan. People make all the rules, and my job is that break my the rules that I made before. I am going to buy the car in late apirl, but I don't have enough money. Yeah, money is always a problem for me even I don't wanna aspect. I don't wanna ask it from my parents but I have no choice. Well, anyway, I thought if I get a higher grade in my classes, it will easier to ask extra money. I have no clue what I am talking about in today's dairy. I just wrote whatever I thought. But writing a diary is a good behavior that worth to insist, isn't it?

4/20/2011
Busy day, actually, I got busy in these three days. I had to study for my the fist midterm. Well, I perceive  it as my first final.Well, I did well, it was worth to study two days for this midterm. There are three more weeks in this semester, I don't think I did well but I am better than last semster:). I will work harder in the summer semester,too. Well, let's talk a little about my job. Oh, I lost my cellphone by the way. When I told to my friend, they said, "you lost your cellphone... again?" I am even shamed to go meadwood mall to buy another sims card. I will go to another local store which I never went before, and I realized that store is very close to one of the walmarts. Well, one stone hit two birds. I am planning wake up earlier tomorrow to study my another class. Do you best, expect worst. I trust my ability and my instructor. Another guy who lives here wanna talk to me again, I just treat it as an entertainment. I don't think there's a big chance to get my goal, but there's no harm to take a shot. Okay, list of the project of this week must be done: slots machine, website, and CPU schedule.

4/22/2011
I need to conclude and take experience this time. Each time is not. Be honest, I think he has a huge impossibility to take this class. Well, that's fine if he doesn't want to take. I don't believe cannot pass by myself. Oh, now I need to focus on my projects and website. Today is not a good day. I shouldn't go outside. Well, anyway, I have to finish at least website and one project which due next week, and paper work of my math class. I just have two more weeks, and then, I can have a little break. I understand my personality is different than normal people, but when I wanna talk, I talk. This is the basic needs. Anyway, life is up and down, take a breath, and move on. Don't admire others, try to self-improve every time. Learn new things from failure, and don't have the same mistake again. Lonely is temporary, comparing with that guy who has the same major with me, my networking  is better than him. The only thing I need that is to buy a car and improving my technical skill. I wanna know how to use php and mysql before summer over. Well, anyway, work as harder as possible, use every source you can use. I need to cultivate the second habit. Even though you don't like social networking, but you don't have choice because you are human been. Even an orangutan can understand how important of melting in a society.

4/24/2011
Not a good day, I don't mean I had a bad luck in this day. Just don't feel very well, but not very bad. ... What am I talking about?\@_@//. Times is like stop in this weekend. I even don't know how to prevent it happening. But at least I have dairy behavior to remand me this point and make sure not that it will not happening again. I still have a lot of work about website and projects and I don't think that I can finish it todayT_T. Lazy, lazy girl... I know it is not good, but at least I didn't lay on the bed for a whole day. Actually I cannot because I have a meeting today. Anyway, I have wake up very early tomorrow to finish my website! No excuse and other options if I wanna work in summer for my boss. Because I don't think she wants to hire a lazy women who cannot even finish her job... Well, anyway, I just need to struggle for just two more weeks. Oh, no, maybe three more. I even don't wanna think about one of my class. At least do my best for that one. Well, anyway, this is not I need to cheer up, just two more weeks!

4/28/2011
Finals are coming, don't have time to write the diary. If I have extra time, I will go to sleep... see me next week.

4/28/2011
Surrender now or prepare to fight!!! Okay, that's my fault, but I will do my best to approach to A! Don't complain, fight and repair, don't upset, I deserve what I want. I always unlucky in a small and very luck in turning point! I realised that I have wrote today... But I totally didn't remember until I saw it. I also think I need to have more communicate with my classmates! My motion get better when I told to several person even didn't talk my issues. Social animal,anh, da! Just one more week! I am fighting! and also fight other things such like my job my relationship... Everything is depended on my own. Hard? definitely. Happy?definitely! Expanding my thought, practising my skill, getting life better! I should work hard twice than native speaker, I know, I know. No pain, no gain? Damn right! Today I do, tomorrow i will? Exactly! Think positive, and then move on. Take a deep breath, and move on. Ya, this is life. 

5/09/2011
Done! No matter how was the final, I am final for this semester... Okay, I don't like a busy life, but if there is nothing to do in my life, it will be very boring... Summer plan: tough draft of course... Preparing my GRE test! The most important thing!!! Get the driver license! Yeah, you are right, I didn't take even once test nowT_T. Planning never catch up the reality life... Working, PHP, database. A lot of work need to do in the summer semester. My boss said she didn't decide my time schedule yet, let see after my time schedule is done. Oh, another important thing is babala. Be honest, I don't have enough confidence to this thing, but you never know the result if you don't have a try At least I tried, and this action is simulating the real life babala. It is hard to get a babala, but it also can practice my english and my community skills. So you just need to pay the member ship fee which is still very expensive. Well, I will do best to pass the GRE exam because my overall and major GPA is not very high, in other word, it is very low... Well, I need to rebuild my relationship with my older friend and make some new friends in the summer. I predict that this summer will better than any summer before.