date: 1/14/2011
mood: happy
A q is coming. Don't let others take you down!haha, need to my persevere dream, and be nice to my own. If nobody loves you, just love yourself. Okay, Valentine, I am lonely. Two things, that friend's problem. I really don't wanna talk about it, even don't wanna remember in the dairy. I treat her as a friend, maybe I am sensitive, maybe her had a bad temper, I don't know, I just think this is a stupid thing. And there is also a little chemistry thing in Valentines, I know I also have a problem in this group, but I never fell such stronger today. hrrr..Valentine, my boyfriend is working and studying...Sad. BUT!! My plan is on the table, and it is going well so far. I hope I can find some special. This is not the whole life. Well, my job, and intern, is planning and applying,too. Hope I am lucky. I need some power in these things. I think I have to buy a car, this is not a multiple-choice. In one word, ask people help is necessary, but if no one can help you, or you don't wanna this person's help, just ask yourself.

7/26/2011
mood: confused
Be honest, I don't think I did anything wrong. If you are going to have a relationship, figure out how his physical background is very important. You cannot survive if you ignore that. But I think my way should more smoothy. Well, my parent think he can understand if he is also wanna a serious relationship. I don't know what's going on here, and maybe I cannot success at my first time, but it is also a life experience:). I thought my step is already slow in my age, but be honest mine is faster than any young member in my family:). Anyway, don't depress! Just my first step! Well, anyway, he is not my number one.

7/26/2011
mood: confused
Be honest, I don't think I did anything wrong. If you are going to have a relationship, figure out how his physical background is very important. You cannot survive if you ignore that. But I think my way should more smoothy. Well, my parent think he can understand if he is also wanna a serious relationship. I don't know what's going on here, and maybe I cannot success at my first time, but it is also a life experience:). I thought my step is already slow in my age, but be honest mine is faster than any young member in my family:). Anyway, don't depress! Just my first step! Well, anyway, he is not my number one.

6/2/2011
There is a power to push me to write down my idea. I don't know why, maybe it is from god\U_U//. Well, I cannot make my appointment earlier because someone said it just can be further... What a boolshit it was! I shifted 3 days earlier of my appointment yesterday... Well I think they can do it but that old man just lazy. Anyway, I will go there tomorrow or Saturday and see if I can get some lucky. Oh, by the way it seems like I can keep my regular appointment if I walk by the department. Another thing is my internship. What a big problem it is! I really hate to go the advisor's office and told about my GPA problem. "Your GPA is good, but not great." Well, what politely she said! I know my GPA is not high, otherwise, it is very low. Well, anyway, I have to find a internship otherwise I cannot graduate. I must be confinement. It can help me go over and solve this problem.

5/29/2011
Okay, things is different... Well, I went to the church today, and asked a bible from the priest. I read a little, but still had many problems. In the book, load said his the only god in the world, he can do everything, if you trust him, you can live forever... well, in my opinion, every religion is exclusive, and every religion has an almighty god \U_U//. I will go the church next weekend, god might point and solve my problem, maybe not. It depends on him... It also depends on weather I trust the jesus or not... Well I just researched what differences between Catholic and Christian...  A lot of different... Well, I am still working on it. Well, now I just trust load... I don't know what I am talking about. Well, anyway, I need to remove my makeup, remember some vocabularies and go to bed:)

5/24/2011
A very busy day! haha, I replaced my passenger side mirror and took a little practice about the parallel parking. It was very suck! haha, I didn't pass yet. But I am trying to practice tomorrow or the day after tomorrow. Anyway, I need to do my best to remember vocabulary, that is the most important thing... I am still wondering if I should give them some gifts for asking... Well, they told they will move in five days, I am not sure I can see them again. Whatever, I am not so good to make friends... This ability is a gift, too. If there is a hatchet over my head, then I can do everything... Just teasing... Well, first of all, I need to get my driver license. This is the highest priority, at the same time, I also need to prepare my GRE, then find a job. Someone told me if I take three classes in one semester, then I have to pay extra out of state fee. But if I just take two classes, then I don't need to pay the extra. I mean, it's a lot. Finding a job earlier is also good for me,too.

5/23/2011
I have a nice day today! The problem I had is temporary, and I am so luck! Well my dad said I usually told for half which means some person might understand what I am talking about. Anyway, tomorrow morning I will pick up my mirror on my own. Maybe 9 o'clock! Z said he will pick me up at 3. I understand that because it is not his car, and it is not his mirror neither. Well, then I will be done in my entire car. Actually, I really want to talk about my GRE test. I really don't wanna remember vocabulary. But I have no choice. I will do my best to scan once in the green book. At the same time, I will finish the four yellow books. Writing is also an important thing for me because I still have a lot of grammar issues in my writing. But I think it can be fixed. I mean I can write a essay every day and go to writing center to edit. I am sure if I do it for one month, my writing will without any grammar problems.
What's else? Oh, except a man, life is perfect.

5/22/2011
Okay, I bought a car last week. But just wait one day long, I had a little accident. Well, the passenger side mirror is broken. Anyway, there are a lot of extra things need to do since I bought the car. Be honest, I don't wanna drive but I it seems like I don't have any choice... Well any way, I realized that friends are very helpful for a human been but I don't have a lot. Training is another trouble which means I am so shy to ask any friend to help. Maybe I can pay for the training. The last "interesting" thing is one guy thought that I love him so he gave me a email. In the email, he said his girl doesn't like I call him so that he hope I never call him again... I don't know what to say because I treat him as a friend, but his attitude is not from a friend. I told my mom and she said this kind of guy thinks any one should love him... OMG, I just called him for training... What did he think about? I block his email address in the gchat and I positive sure don't wanna tell him again.

5/09/2011
Done! No matter how was the final, I am final for this semester... Okay, I don't like a busy life, but if there is nothing to do in my life, it will be very boring... Summer plan: tough draft of course... Preparing my GRE test! The most important thing!!! Get the driver license! Yeah, you are right, I didn't take even once test nowT_T. Planning never catch up the reality life... Working, PHP, database. A lot of work need to do in the summer semester. My boss said she didn't decide my time schedule yet, let see after my time schedule is done. Oh, another important thing is babala. Be honest, I don't have enough confidence to this thing, but you never know the result if you don't have a try At least I tried, and this action is simulating the real life babala. It is hard to get a babala, but it also can practice my english and my community skills. So you just need to pay the member ship fee which is still very expensive. Well, I will do best to pass the GRE exam because my overall and major GPA is not very high, in other word, it is very low... Well, I need to rebuild my relationship with my older friend and make some new friends in the summer. I predict that this summer will better than any summer before.

4/28/2011
Surrender now or prepare to fight!!! Okay, that's my fault, but I will do my best to approach to A! Don't complain, fight and repair, don't upset, I deserve what I want. I always unlucky in a small and very luck in turning point! I realised that I have wrote today... But I totally didn't remember until I saw it. I also think I need to have more communicate with my classmates! My motion get better when I told to several person even didn't talk my issues. Social animal,anh, da! Just one more week! I am fighting! and also fight other things such like my job my relationship... Everything is depended on my own. Hard? definitely. Happy?definitely! Expanding my thought, practising my skill, getting life better! I should work hard twice than native speaker, I know, I know. No pain, no gain? Damn right! Today I do, tomorrow i will? Exactly! Think positive, and then move on. Take a deep breath, and move on. Ya, this is life. 

4/28/2011
Finals are coming, don't have time to write the diary. If I have extra time, I will go to sleep... see me next week.

4/24/2011
Not a good day, I don't mean I had a bad luck in this day. Just don't feel very well, but not very bad. ... What am I talking about?\@_@//. Times is like stop in this weekend. I even don't know how to prevent it happening. But at least I have dairy behavior to remand me this point and make sure not that it will not happening again. I still have a lot of work about website and projects and I don't think that I can finish it todayT_T. Lazy, lazy girl... I know it is not good, but at least I didn't lay on the bed for a whole day. Actually I cannot because I have a meeting today. Anyway, I have wake up very early tomorrow to finish my website! No excuse and other options if I wanna work in summer for my boss. Because I don't think she wants to hire a lazy women who cannot even finish her job... Well, anyway, I just need to struggle for just two more weeks. Oh, no, maybe three more. I even don't wanna think about one of my class. At least do my best for that one. Well, anyway, this is not I need to cheer up, just two more weeks!

4/22/2011
I need to conclude and take experience this time. Each time is not. Be honest, I think he has a huge impossibility to take this class. Well, that's fine if he doesn't want to take. I don't believe cannot pass by myself. Oh, now I need to focus on my projects and website. Today is not a good day. I shouldn't go outside. Well, anyway, I have to finish at least website and one project which due next week, and paper work of my math class. I just have two more weeks, and then, I can have a little break. I understand my personality is different than normal people, but when I wanna talk, I talk. This is the basic needs. Anyway, life is up and down, take a breath, and move on. Don't admire others, try to self-improve every time. Learn new things from failure, and don't have the same mistake again. Lonely is temporary, comparing with that guy who has the same major with me, my networking  is better than him. The only thing I need that is to buy a car and improving my technical skill. I wanna know how to use php and mysql before summer over. Well, anyway, work as harder as possible, use every source you can use. I need to cultivate the second habit. Even though you don't like social networking, but you don't have choice because you are human been. Even an orangutan can understand how important of melting in a society.

4/20/2011
Busy day, actually, I got busy in these three days. I had to study for my the fist midterm. Well, I perceive  it as my first final.Well, I did well, it was worth to study two days for this midterm. There are three more weeks in this semester, I don't think I did well but I am better than last semster:). I will work harder in the summer semester,too. Well, let's talk a little about my job. Oh, I lost my cellphone by the way. When I told to my friend, they said, "you lost your cellphone... again?" I am even shamed to go meadwood mall to buy another sims card. I will go to another local store which I never went before, and I realized that store is very close to one of the walmarts. Well, one stone hit two birds. I am planning wake up earlier tomorrow to study my another class. Do you best, expect worst. I trust my ability and my instructor. Another guy who lives here wanna talk to me again, I just treat it as an entertainment. I don't think there's a big chance to get my goal, but there's no harm to take a shot. Okay, list of the project of this week must be done: slots machine, website, and CPU schedule.

4/17/2011
I think I and him just like this, the end.Maybe we can email each other but just like a pen friend. I usually cannot finish my plan, so it is not surprised that I don't finish this time. Well, but I do wanna get b in that class, so I cannot allow last situation happens again. I am in the student union which means I have to study in my midterm. Finishing before 10 o'clock was my original plan but it is normal if I cannot finish it before mid-night. Be honest, I don't expect a lot on my original plan. People make all the rules, and my job is that break my the rules that I made before. I am going to buy the car in late apirl, but I don't have enough money. Yeah, money is always a problem for me even I don't wanna aspect. I don't wanna ask it from my parents but I have no choice. Well, anyway, I thought if I get a higher grade in my classes, it will easier to ask extra money. I have no clue what I am talking about in today's dairy. I just wrote whatever I thought. But writing a diary is a good behavior that worth to insist, isn't it?

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4/15/2011
Nothing happened. None, not even any felling in him... And I have to say, his English sounds like black man, and I am thinking maybe it is wrong to contact an Asian because they are very familiar about us. Well, anyway, boring, crowded, and starving. Just met a few old friends and watched a familiar show... And food? Oh, don't ask to me. Actually I wanna try the Chinese food but since he doesn't like it, well, we just past it. One more thing, why anybody ask me "is he your boy friend?" Can they think much more than that? I don't know,just think they are so ...
Well, let's talk about my interview, this interview was not bad. There were six questions in the quiz which I first know you have quiz when you are in interview. Whatever, I finished all of them and answered all the questions. Since I don't have any experiences of PHP I don't think they will hire me. At the end of the interview he said I will call you next week so that you can find other internship... Well, anyway, this is just my the second interview, if I can conclude it as a pattern, I may get a job:). Wish me luck.

4/12/2011
Well, it was so bad... This thing distracted me from the class... which means bad. I think that I just haven't used to this... well, I will. But my heart heat fast when I saw his message. It doesn't mean anything, does it? He and his friend just come over and will have a crazy weekend. I thought a whole night then I realized I thought too much. My job is just a guide. I don't have a car so I cannot pick them up. They may drive, may not, whatever. But I need to stay in campus. If he wanna meet, fine, in campus. I don't think it will happen anything because we just talk several times even didn't meet each other before. The reason I nervous because I didn't do this before. Well, let's see what will happen:). I may find a girl friend with me, but if I cannot find, doesn't matter, just assure it is in campus and safety. What's else? oh, night of all nations! Let's also see what will happened. haha, I am going to bed. Preparing for fighting tomorrow! Well, I like this sentence: no matter how you feel, get up, dress up, and show up! Oh, and prepare as enough as you can!

4/11/2011
hrrr... I lost my cellphone. And I admire the cellphone carrier seller so much... I just wanna buy a sim card? Why you guys don't let me go unless I get a contract? So crazy people... It took me one hour to finish this crap... What did the manager say?He said,"oh, take it easy. I am trying do anything to you..." You did anything for me? I think that you rob my money very easily. Well, whatever, I got a contract for 2 years of my cellphone. I wanna cry. The sad thing is, My bill will more expensive than original price plus two years contract... Well, that's talk something else. I am going to buy a car next week... Yes, and already told someone to teach me how to drive. Preparing the interview on Friday. I got a very low grade in one of my class, but I don't worry about it, because B is goal, and if I get a higher grade in my second midterm, I will be Okay. Study! Study! Oh, I am so worried about my teeth...(they teeth, not tooth). They drive my crazy. I have four carious teeth in my front teeth, and one of them can be seen outside... I like to smile, but with these teeth, it seems like a dream. (Well, be honestly, I don't care, but I am thinking about my teeth when I am smiling every time...). What's else? I am not a gossip girl, but I have to say, I really don't know what's she doing... That's it. I don't know. It seems like GMAT is the most important thing to do. But she doesn't think so. Well, good luck for her.

4/9/2011
Well, I have a broken tooth.. I am considering should I implant it here or go back to china... I could ignore it but it is near my incisor... I hope it can insistent until I come home... The price is a little high, the medium price is 1250 t0 1500. Dollar... Well, it equals about around 10 thousands RMB. But if I go back home the flight cost around 1300, and plus implant price I think it also cost around 1500 dollars. What should I do? Maybe I will get a different decision after I asking my classmates. Maybe they will recommend one doctor for me. But I need a car first of all... Okay, the plan is in below: go to interview, buy a car, pass gre, work and that's it. My little plan in summer break. But hold on, I need to go though the final in the regular semester. What's else? After watching sex and the city, I have an impulsion to get a good friend. But since the experiences in my whole life of making friend, I don't think this plan can be finished. Well, anyway, fantasy can help people go though the difficult situation.