date: 1/14/2011
mood: happy
A q is coming. Don't let others take you down!haha, need to my persevere dream, and be nice to my own. If nobody loves you, just love yourself. Okay, Valentine, I am lonely. Two things, that friend's problem. I really don't wanna talk about it, even don't wanna remember in the dairy. I treat her as a friend, maybe I am sensitive, maybe her had a bad temper, I don't know, I just think this is a stupid thing. And there is also a little chemistry thing in Valentines, I know I also have a problem in this group, but I never fell such stronger today. hrrr..Valentine, my boyfriend is working and studying...Sad. BUT!! My plan is on the table, and it is going well so far. I hope I can find some special. This is not the whole life. Well, my job, and intern, is planning and applying,too. Hope I am lucky. I need some power in these things. I think I have to buy a car, this is not a multiple-choice. In one word, ask people help is necessary, but if no one can help you, or you don't wanna this person's help, just ask yourself.

I'll remember to give you some PBs~~Refueling update it~~~Love you ~~~

I think i have a same problem with you. Actually, i don't how to communicate with other people. I thought I have a really bad temper. Sometimes, just a simple word from u friends, u will get hurt. Me, too. Emotional....I think it's women's rights!

date: 1/15/2011
mode: happy
I hope I can get the mail from the company, but I never received even one letter except one call, which i just miss... Well, I just sent to two companies, this is not enough, I know, and I need to send as more as possible. I didn't talk to him today, this is a bad idea because I need someone else help with my homework besides Nir.  Just talk, it's easy. I will do this on Thursday. what's else? oh, homework,hrrrr... I don't wanna be a last minutes person but I usually do. Okay, do my best to finish it as soon as possible. When you think you cannot make it, just think about there are still a lot of people struggle with food and water, you can feel better. What's else? Oh, I can feel my progress in class:), because we had a imporv activities today, If I were the one who is from one or two years ago, I may feel suck because maybe I cannot understand these kinds of things, but today, I can find fun and do it better. Everyone's road is different, but make yourself happy is the most important thing:). I think I may more happy after I have a car;). So, get driver license as soon as possible. I wanna be the volunteer in night of all nations, and engineering week. I have to go to first one but I am not sure the first. There's no purpose of this volunteer, just for fun. For me, there is few chance to do one thing without purpose expect reading romantic fiction...

1/16/2011
mood: happy
Don't be the last minute person!!! I realized it is so stupid to be this kind of person, because you cannot get any benefit besides feel a little tiny comfortable with shame before doing homework or working.All of these stuff have to do sooner or later after all. I understand this theory so much but always cannot finish homework or job earlier, I usually wait until deadline. How stupid it is!
Secondary, I realized studying can make me happy. How surprised! Don't laugh at me just because I am not like a nerd. Studying can make me  forget anything. Nice discovery.  I am crazy, I know, it has happened long time a ago... But the truth is, I did my homework after Nir calling me. I am very appreciation her call even though we just told less than 1 minute.  I a person who needs someone push me. This is another bad behavior that I need to change. So I decide finish my homework today.
Finishing the crazy talking, then I can talk about some pipe dream though. Well, the planning goes well, but I still like a guy who is little older than me. I think most of guys are usually younger than their real ages. Anyway, I will reply him. He took a shot, I will take a shot,too. Tomorrow I will did another homework, maybe architecture, may the programming of OS.

I think human relationship is very subtle especially in girls~~Sometimes one word can make friendship stronger.Conversely, it may make two people break off ~~
OH~~Please ignore some of my grammar mistakes ~~

OH~~~~I really hate the firendship between the girls!!!!! even if I am a girl!!!!  Friendship is so weak when it face to the love..... I hate to argue with someone about the stupid love thing. Love cannot instead of the whole world! But lots of the "cute" girls think that love is their only thing.....So sucks....I have a roommate who are really like to hang out with boys...I dont wanna say something bad to her. Her actions made me sad....

hrrrr.... Stupid, had a mistake again. Okay keep for tomorrow.
ps: 饼干换名字鸟？！刚发现……

I forgot I keep this position, well, just ignore this

2/17/2011
mood:happy
Had dinner very late and I am so full now. I had a very good chat with my friend when we are in the restaurant, and talking about the marry thing. I know I am not young, and even not fell in love once. Actually, I am a little  anxious about boyfriend stuff. It's in my plan(I prefer to put everything in a plan). But this thing is not an anxious thing, and it is not a pure plan thing either. Mom said this half depends on the plan and half depends on the opportunity and personality of each other. I have prepared this thing, and I through rest of them to whoever on the heaven.
Let's talk about other thing then, studying is still the important thing for me. I realized people can happy when they help people. I felt happy today:), even though just help a classmate whom I never talk with to do homework:). In the big bang theory, Amy said " like or not, until you manage to upload your intelligent into a self sufficiency operating satellite equipment with high speed internet and "隐形“(没听出来，字目上是这么写的……) devices, you will depend on other members' human rise". hrrr... human is a social animal, even sheldon cannot ignore it. Amy is right, sometimes, you can get win win when you help people or when you have a kind heart.
Another thing is I decided to continue do my blog job even they didn't put my name in the officer. It's embarrassed because it made me felt cheep... But I tried to think from another side, it can also give a chance to get the officer member name, just miss one step. The last thing is internship, I am going to send my resume tomorrow. I hope I can find the internship.
PS: it's snowing outside, last two days. I hate snow because it messed up my all weekend plan:(.

Yeah, I changed my name.Change a name can change my mood~~ahahahaha~~~

2/18/2011
mood: happy
I am happy because I don't have classes today. It already snow two days, and never stop even just one minutes. I and my friend will go to get haircut this weekend, even get a appointment. But, look at the weather! It seems like you put a gem in the big bowl of ice. I am pretty sure we cannot drive to the salon tomorrow. I also didn't call my driving teacher because I think she also know it not possible that take driving class tomorrow. So I just had a rest in whole and watching the big bang theory. I need this rest I think. But I become anxious when I realized how many homework I need to do, and how to plan of my future. Oh, I really don't wanna talk about this. But I have to. Well, please forgive me to be lazy today... Another hind, the internet speed is so high today. I already downloaded two and half seasons the big bang. Well, nerd.right? Just wanna emphasize one thing: I really hate snow! Everything is interrupted by this crap snowing! I am pretty sure I don't like it even if I have a car. So suck! My paper, my program, oh, and my resume... By the way, I don't have class on Monday either. I think the reason we don't have class because it will presents' day. Goshhh, I even don't why they call presents' day is presents' day. But still happy I don't need to suffer to snow.

"It seems like you put a gem in the big bowl of ice"??oh my god, i just feel so cold!!!!!  
With luck, the worst of the winter that year was over...haha, spring is coming!!!!!!!
I heard the heavy snow in North Amercia from CCTV, please keep warm    

2/19/2011
mood: happy
When my friend called me I am in asleep. She and me have a appointment this week to go to salon but the snow has lasted two days. I think we would not go there. I was wrong, I just sleep 5 hours until she called me. But I really like my new hair style expect there is a one thing. I need to heat and use hot blow everyday Because of the curly hair, the hair style is totally different from the one which is before I washing my hair.  My roommate said my hair is so ugly because I think she just jealous that I can spent 60 bucks to get hair cut because she instant to say she didn't get a hair cut in new york even it is 30 bucks. She just think she is right in everything, and no one is better than her. What's sad! I am really feel sad about her.  Anyway, I spend 150 bucks today and I was happy:). 90 bucks for food. I don't begrudge the money in food.... Well, my classmate call to me to about the homework. I have two days to finish " these bunch" of homework. I will do these from tomorrow, first I need to finish the essay, and then I need to focus my programming and cpe 411 homework... ohhh, there is a lot...well, anyway, another happy things is the company that I applied to internship called me and let me to set up a  schedule. I need to prepare that interview, too.

I admire those who write English diary

Hope you want to hold on

2/21/2011
mood:happy
I thought that I wrote the diary yesterday, but actually I didn't . That must be my imagine...Well yesterday was my lazy day. I just finished one class homework. But today, it is going so crazy, I hate presents' day. Actually, I hate all of the vacation which means more than 3 days I don't need to go to school.
  I don't think I need to do my programming all over the night without sleeping.... Well, another things was I had a good conversation to one guy. I didn't know his background at the first time, but both of us like PC game. He is very smart guy who is very interested in the computer science, too. He worked for USPS, which connect the networking. We spent 4 hours to talk. How crazy it is! I was happy yesterday.
I think responsibility doesn't have any relationship between the number of children in one family, even though some people say it does.  My friend(Well, I really don't know she is my friend or not), she doesn't have any responsibilities. We took the same online class together which means we can take online quiz together. It's much easier than took the class alone. I am pretty sure she is sensitive one, not me.  Today is the deadline of one quiz, I called her in the morning, and we make a time to do the quiz together. She answered the phone, and we talk a little. But in the evening around 10pm, I called her again, she didn't answer it anymore. I called her friends and tried to find out what's going on with her. Her friend told me she has drop the class... I was shocked on it. I mean, I understand we have a long essay also due today in this class, and I also understand why she drop this class. But why she didn't call me to tell me she drop it? Even worse, she didn't answer my phone in the evening. Finally, she pick up the phone, I tried to ask her the password about the account(Actually, I knew before). Guess what she told me? "The same password, but my account cannot be open anymore." I doubt it. She knew if I know the password, then I can get 100 percent in every quiz.. I think she just changed the password. It is not the first time she changed the password when someone else ask her. I think in her mind, she just think if I cannot get better, no one cannot better. She is so selfish that mind I got the better grade even she drop the class... This kind of person is not my friend, so sensitive  and mood change so fast. I am not surprised that she doesn't have any real friend because all of her friend who get the benefit with her or she beg a lot to be someone's friend. I think I will met this kind of person a lot in my future, I am not angry because it can practice my patient and endurance. But I am still thinking how to treat her in next semester.

2/22/2011
mood: sleepy
Well, I just slept 4 hours yesterday, so I really need a high quality over night sleeping. I didn't finish my programming and just turn it in. I am very afraid of the same situation was happened on my first academic year. I never never won't do that again. This is the worst thing I have had. This is an order to myself, not the negation.Otherwise, I told to that Chinese guy in my class. Not surprised, he is the master, but I also surprised that He already been here two years. I mean, we have the same major, but never meet before. Nice guy, a little shy. But it doesn't matter because I just wanna be friend with him, not be girlfriend. I don't care he shy or not. What's else? Oh, called Hamiltin co. today, and set up time to take interview. I am so nervous because this is my first interview off campus. I hope that I can take this job. What's else? Oh, some guys emailed me today, and one of them also is in the this school. In my opinion, I can meet him in campus. Just in the coffee shop, not in club. I am so happy I am a girl because there is one more method to solve my problem than guy. My eyes feels dizzy, I cannot take it anymore. I am going to sleep but I remember my friend will pick up the soup in the midnight. Well, I am really not sure if she come or not.

2/23/2011
Get the haircut today! As all of people said, very very expensive. It cost me 55 bucks. The first time I knew I also need to give tips in saloon. I make a huge step today to find partner in class:). The social group should be expanded. Well, in other word, human is group animal. I watched the criminal mind today. In one episode said one girl told herself she is happy everyday and  use "today I do, tomorrow I will" to encourage herself everyday. When I watched here, I was afraid because I told myself must be happy everyday. The behavior is very similar as this girl. I think there is something wrong when I do this. But at the end of the episode, there is nothing wrong with this behavior except cannot be  insisted a long time. Just like the diary thing:). Oh by the way, the guy who is taking the same class with me told that I should take the GRE test as soon as possible because the testing question will be changed until around October. What's else? Oh, all of the midterm will come up next or the week after next week. Need to study hard. Yes, and don't left the stuff till tomorrow. I will go to my boss office in the morning and talk about the website I made. What's else? Oh, also need to save money:) I bought a lot of stuff this month already. The hair therapy stuff can be wait until I find a job. Cook meal in the house. Don't grab food outside in this week. My goal just this week:)

My bangs are long, the day cut their own

I've actually wanted to change my hairstyle for long time......

2/24/2011
I have a intern interview tomorrow at 8 o'clock. So I need to sleep earlier today. Since I don't have a car so I need to take a bus at 6:21... So early. I didn't prepare a lot about this interview because this is my first time and I really don't know how to prepare it. More behavior question or more technique question? Well, really don't know. It should snow today, but the snowing delay to tomorrow. It sucks. I am so regret that I make the interview at 8. I hate snow so much. Besides interview, I have an other appointment tomorrow. That's about my current job. Be honest, I didn't do anything in this job, so I will apply another on campus job which has more challenge. Oh, if it is not gonna snow tomorrow, I will go to mall to take of the tag in my jeans. It is a stupid mistake to forgot to ask cashier take it off... Wish me lucky tomorrow. What's else? All of midterms are coming next week or the week after next week... Wish me lucky,too. But the important thing is, I need to study hard no matter how hard it is. Oh, and my another secret plan? Crap, too busy to do. But it cannot be given up because it my another way to accomplish my goal in the future. When a door is closed, a window will be opened for you. I believe this sentence. But this window may hard to find it. You should do many things to find this window. But anyway, the window always there that waiting to you to find it out. Another thing I regret which told that guy the specific website. I always did a stupid thing without thinking. But it also prove that I am a nice person:). Well, I also believe "fools have a lot lucky:)". My mom always say I will a good life in my last half live. What's else? Oh, all of the midterms are coming next week and the week after next week. I have to study harder and 2As and 2Bs is my goal. My secret plan is delayed because I am too busy to do it. But I cannot give up this plan, because it is my another way to accomplish my dream.